my head cracks open while I try to think straight. it’s like a bottle of red whisky with a bit of tongue in it. it seems rusty but it’s new. my head opens up like a peanut jar while the seeds, the fruits, the hard-rock fruits will fall down to the ground in a forceless explosion.
just think about it:
“I will take the other half”
“I will be the other half”
“I will take half of your dream” and make it true
“We’ll split this dream in half” and we’ll dream it together
If I could, I would take your nightmares in my dreams just to make you safe. I would share your fears when you feel like you’re isolated and in the dark. I would spend hours trying to explain myself just to make sure your head will not crack like mine did.
If I were to choose between being frightful and being lonely, I’d choose being frighful anytime. I’d choose a lifetime of insecurities instead of a lifetime of wandering around the streets of London.
It’s been always my dream. I was lonely boy. Wandering around. The streets. Of London. Looking for something. That was not there to be found. That was not proper at that moment. But it felt right. It still feels right. It feels exciting and joyful and keeps me wandering.
Wandering around in my head. And the streets of London. Looking for a hot treat, cuz it sounded so cool. Looking for myself, more like. And I did find myself. I do find myself everyday in the mirror. Sometimes I’m a scared little boy. Sometimes I’m a funny little boy. Sometimes I’m a fearful man. Sometimes I’m a happy man. Sometimes I just like pretending I’m a little boy with no worries. Sometimes I like to pretend that I know what I’m doing. Sometimes I smile. And sometimes, not that often, I take your face in the palms of my hands and hold your head.
You won’t miss this when you will see me. And I stopped asking myself questions about love. I just look at the sky and think about something mysterious…
A few days ago, for the first time, I asked myself if I actually loved one of them for real. Until now, I was certain I did. Now I’m not anymore. I don’t think I got the chance to be completely honest with myself regarding it. It’s still out there.
